[this point onwards]

its kinda cool when ahead of you u have a entire clean slate. like life isn't just a continuation of yesterday. its like, u've been handed a map, compass, u know the checkpoints, u set the course.

of course, u'll never forget what got you to the point you are now. the mistakes, the sorrows, the successes, those moments that take your breath away.

i'm wishing so much for that day to come when it all makes sense. when i could again lose myself in another person. in a way, maybe if the right girl doesn't come, my profession will thankfully compensate. in any case, i just gotta take steps in the right direction and keep wishing.

[ :( ]

"...before i've arrived... i'm preparing to leave her" the lyrics of robbie william seem so true. the emotion... where u just feel so burnt.

when life feels like there's so much sorrow and so little happiness.

i hope it works out tml. please.

[everything great starts somewhere small]

was reading this blog of this dude... he keeps going on about his ex. wah and he seems to be still waiting for her... well i do hope she finally comes and he'll be the happiest dude in the world... or maybe time will teach him to move on, or maybe another pretty girl will :) hoping for us all. all my single, wonderful frens out there. and for the attached ones, just hope you'll fall more and more in love each day!

read somewhere that guys look for romance and passion, whereas women look for stability and someone who can provide. well as all generalisations go, there're bound to be exceptions, but isn't our whole life based on these generalisations? even in medicine, so many things are generalised, cos if u really went into the interplay of all the million factors at work, you'd take really long to get to any clinically useful diagnosis.

anyhow, we're at wednesday already, and the only thing i'm doing properly this week is driving. i really hope it works out well this friday, driving is really an important thing to me. actually i dun really know why its so important, maybe its just one of those things u know you could get, an event that's still within your control, unlike the so many other unpredictable things in this beautiful world.

then saturday, i'll go visit india for the first time in my life. going armed with two vaccinations, and an open mind. please may everything work out well! who knows maybe i'll find some hot babe there?

bombay is officially my favourite tamil movie now. manisha koirala and aravind samy have surpassed madhavan and simran in kannathil muttamithal... yet another dream to work towards.

[epiphany]

i've realised i've been trying very hard to run away from a simple truth, that we're all, only human (nobody says that better than agent smith)

instead of focussing on our fallibility, potential for corruption, capacity for deviant behaviour, fanatism, our short lifespans in which we dun really seem do anything much, i believe there's so much beauty to this fragile existence.

much like wad was said in the movie Troy, i believe one of the greatest beauties of humanity is that we always have a choice. we're not programmed to always be righteous, moral, but whenever we choose good over bad, for whatever reason, i believe that's something for all of us to smile about.

[bombay]

things have changed quite alot recently. i feel like a changed man somehow. like alot of conclusions being reached, though deep inside i keep reminding myself not to make generalisations... getting weary, burned, a caged bird that keeps itself alive on the sustainence of dreams, dreams of being able to be where it wants to be someday. hoping things will work out, at the right time, the right way. hoping that although i can't control those around me, at least i turn out fine, in the many facets of the life. remembering that those who love you are more precious than the ones you love. to always cherish these ppl, ensure no harm comes to them.

like my msn nick goes, i'm becoming inexorable.

[ :) ]

rite now, i got 4 good reasons to be happy.

thanks guys.

[sakit]

sometimes it just hurts so bad.

[opinionated]

haha... after a day of stony meditation... i've come to the conclusion that sometimes its best not have an opinion in some cases... things are just beautiful by themselves... its like how the sky just happens to be beautiful somedays and so blank on other days, it just like that. well u could try to rationalise some wind patterns and how they contribute to the clouds being that way, but that way are u really trying to understand the clouds better? do the clouds feel better that u know how they came to be?

:) kan vizhithu sorpanam kandain... unnalae kan vizhithu sorpanam kandain...