[things i should not have to worry about now]

guess my un-bothered streak ran out. or maybe its cos of...

oh well, feeling miserable.

doesn't help that pharmaco is so hard to remember.

get back to the road, mog, you've strayed too far for too long.

[guys]

as i was about to off my comp, i wondered, how come nobody talk to me on msn ah?

then i realised i was appearing offline.

guilt always gets to me during msn conversations these few days... i wonder if i'm getting to occupied in myself... always feel i could be mugging something instead...

i'm blaming it all on pre exam madness.

my recurrent dream is getting thru with pros with a smile on my face, then facing the whole new world confident of reaching year 3. maybe learn salsa, take a few chances with things just to see where the road leads. excitement.

i'm gonna make sure i deserve all that fun! :)

YEAR 3. can u feel it?!!! its coming... hopefully

[spanish]

u know how some songsremind you of specfic times... when i think of spanish, i can only think of travelling in kums car, blasting the song as we go around the esplanade looking for lots. feeling relaxed, calmed, in the presence of lovely company.

i've learnt that alot i've learnt about people doesn't really matter. people are just people. cars are just cars. people make mistakes. nobody is the same. well, i'm thankful for that. well think of a screwed up person in your life. times 2? times 4? well maybe u could argue good person times 10.

and sometimes all we need is to believe that people are wonderful, to make them as wonderful as we want them to be.

[does she like me?]

suddenly that sentence felt grammatically off. dunno why but it suddenly felt that way.

anyhow, yup yup. back to being single and asking all the weird questions singles ask. the games singles play with each other.

i guess i should try to enjoy this. well, as they say, if one fails, try another.

[vday]

hahah 40min for vday to be over. thank goodness. an end to the media blitz only serving to remind me of my romantic loneliness this year.

hahah was listening to 91.3 in the car as i spent some part of my evening waiting in the car for family. hahah the dj was asking some girl to go have some "smack that" kinda action after dinner.

hahaha hilarious.

the way the girl was giggling... aiyoh...

currently my idea of a dream valentine's day would just be me sitting in the driver's seat of a porsche. revving her up, relishing the pure sound of 3000cc worth of power at your disposal. yeah...

that's wad i'd call bringing sexy back.

30min left :)

[cheesy?]

kinda decided on something. how long am i just gonna wait. and hope? it really sucks... that longing... and possibly each time u find someone, u just wanna fast forward to the happily ever part.

by the way, happily ever after does exist. just not in the way it happens in the fairytales. but it does!

yeah i'm quite lucky to have frens who are indeed happily ever after... at least my definition of it... hope i can someday join them. if not nevermind i guess? nevermind i hope!

its so hard to close the door. yet keeping it open seems hard as well... i do wish i can reach either end, hopefully the latter.

[V]

"Vi Veri Veniversum Vivus Vici" = Latin,

"I by the power of Truth, while living, have conquered the Universe

[dreams]

how far would you go to hold on to a dream?

would u still believe in something when all your life points the other way?

[today]

i'm gonna try to learn to forgive...

everyone makes mistakes...

its like as life goes on, its like this screen u had to look at the world, that keeps getting dirtier and dirtier with all the bad events that happened, till its hard to appreciate the beauty of the world when all you can see is the hurt that tells u that its all bullshit.

[no more excuses]

hahaha no more excuses. if you're lousy you're lousy. gotta accept the facts. and stop giving myself excuses. if u wanna keep dreaming, you better keep working towards that dream.