[guys]

a big thanks to all the darlings that revived me from the depths of ... well... emptiness

yeah was really nice to talk to all of u after sch finished and meeting the guys in the evening for good ole guys action. happy birthday jim :)

its moments like this that makes it all worth it.

[i thought i told ya, hey]

what goes around comes back around

i hate saying it, but u brought this upon yourself.

[sucks]

i feel frustrated. its like there's a world sea out there, and here i am fumbling at the helm unable to even take my ship out of dock.

i want to go so many places, yet i'm stumbling even at the start.

[waht?]

isn't that a cool way of saying what?

anyhow. life at this moment is wadeva.

[alot like love]

wah. neckache from all the cable skiiing and love-like feelings really deprived me of a good night's rest. combined with shagness really makes for a unique situation.

what actually seperates love from friendship? or are they overlapping concepts? u definitely can love your friend can't you?

[timbo]

asked for smth but was denied. well, no answer and the face explains alot i guess.

in that moment, i realised what you must have felt. felt sorry for u. but i guess if u really wanted something, u should fight for it. i know i dun deserve to say that, having just conceded myself, but i tell myself each day that if that day comes, let me be the better man, or let me rot forever.

i hope i can rise to the occasion, when i'm the one who has to be the parent in the future.

i need to scale down some things, lofty dreams have suddenly become to heavy to bear.

[morning breeze]

its been a chilly morning so far. the kind that makes u wanna remain in bed indefinitely.

but in a way, its a charming weather, the kind you know if u decided to go for a run, you'll feel this surreal feeling... as your heart is beating faster, the sweat, all seems to blend seamlessly into the nature around you. but alas. here i am in front of the computer, listening to Try by Nelly Furtado. what a nice song.

actually the purpose of this post is to thank all my friends, whom i've gotten a chance to meet thus far. i guess being absorbed in CSFC and supps kinda makes you forget the sweet surrender in the company of wonderful people.

looking forward to more frens this upcoming week, but hoping to up the ante and get back to biting point as school starts again.

time to own, something to prove to myself.

and all i can do is try

[lollipop]

you're not worth it. not at this moment, at least. goodbye, all of you.

sticking with the ppl who matter.

I’ll lick your ice cream. And you can lick my lollipop.
(Dada - Lollipop ft. Sandy Rivera & Trix)

[makes me wonder]

there's so many things to do, that i wanna do. that i cannot get to doing anything. paralysing. and now that i have internet, flooded with so many ideas. more ideas.

my hols have become this frantic desperation to meet frens. ideally, i wanna have individualy one on one slots with everyone.

learnt i made a big mistake, all in my effort to show someone i cared. shat.

and i only have myself to blame these days.

[back]

internet's back.

on my command, unleash hell.

[happiness :)]

listening to raaga.com using computer in school library. suddenly this sudden flush of happiness. i've realised that being disconnected from the internet has actually turned out to be a blessing. somehow it seems i get alot more msgs from frens thru facebook and emails.

shall rmb this happy moment.

somehow these few days i feel/ or want to feel like a dark templar. drawing my energies from the void of space, instead from people, things that fluctuate so unpredictable. feeling hence more rooted, the chill of the void keeps you on your toes.

can't wait to play starcraft 2.

my dear frens, i hope you're all happy as well. you're all in my heart always, i find catch up more when my exam ends. take care, stay strong.

en taro adun!