[unnale unnale]

how wonderful. tamil has a single word that says, "because of you"

and yes. here i am because of you. all of you. well, not only because of you. in some cases, in spite of you. despite of you. without you. against you.

discovered that its possible to fall in love again. and yes, my heart which i regarded a barren soil now promises to become a garden, unnale unnale.

well, i guess promise isn't the right word. i'll just leave it as hopeful.

but the very fact that i can even look down this road gives me hope =)

[prodrive]

another beautiful moment, driving along an expressway on the 1st lane. with the serenity of the environment, the gentle revs of the engine, the radio for company.

found peace at 110km/h.

[angry]

how can u call yourself ...

(appeased by songs)

[guys!]

suddenly wish i did something different.

feel like being selfish and just stick to the people who are important to me. be biased towards them. cherish their company, honour them.

and that doesn't include yoU, yOu, You and YOu (ad nauseum).

in other news.

you are truly beautiful. i've learnt what true beauty is. and its you.

(and NOT yoU.)

[world is unfair:) ]

hahah took me so long to finally accept and come to terms with the fact that:

drumroll....

LIFE. IS. UNFAIR.

it doesn't matter if you love her more than anything in the world. she'll find someone else.
you think u've studied to most. he gets more marks without doing anything.
or her skirt's shorter.
or maybe he just doesn't give a damn.

so yes. accept it boy. more on.

play the game.

maybe in the unfair world, the dice will swing your way too. take the blessings, dump the birdshit. life's just like that.

somehow i feel more positive about the future.

and yet, i'm taken another step into myself.

[all good things]

hahah looking thru my childhood photos... putting together smth for my birthday party...

sangae was nice, my cousin is really so talented. goodstuff.

hahaha saw so many beautiful faces, yet all they'll ever be is a beautiful face. for now.

the heart yearns for more.

and an event that occurred last week reminded me of how we really have to make use of these few years to really become competent housemen. not doctors, yet.

and i guess its a unique wonderful feeling to end a late evening lonely, walking to the carpark to see the familiar visage of your car waiting for you. sometimes inanimate things give us the firm constancy that is so missing with people.

but that's not a fault with people, its just the way it has to be. and yet we yearn.

[moments]

when i was in primary sch, there was this one time my teacher took my fren's book at threw it out of the class for being untidy.

ever since that day, i was always neat, well for a long time at least.

those moments that change our lives.

[?]

happy national day to all of us!

its already 10.57pm. gwahhh.

time's flying by and i feel i've become a spectator of my own life.

[love]

nothing like a good ole tamil picture to restore the idealism in you.

reminded of past events, of words exchanged but not kept.

can we ever truly move on? i guess the more important question becomes, how can i love you more? just that for me, the "you" in that statement is variable.

or can i ever love at all? these days i'm so selfish with my time. feel so much of it has been wasted already.

i'll just pray you find happiness. whoever you may be. and along the way, i'll find my pot of gold, somewhere, somehow.

wonder what the future would bring.