[farewell 2007]

well its time to say goodbye to 2007, when i can, while i can before mugging takes over me. shall share some glimpses into my life at this moment, i guess wad we each are in the present moment summarises all that has happened to us before, though we usually neglect the happy times, focussing on the sadness that seems to pervade

here i am sitting in front of the mess that has become my room, sorting out my things, though i should be mugging. demonstrates my wonderful sense of priorities as well.

i firmly believe that i can finish mugging on time. (this is so that i can reflect in the future on this decision).

just came back from family dinner. also bought a new pair of Puma Munich shoes. got a new Yonex racket. mum had some voucher to use up okay, otherwise the sudden splurge would not be possible. and i wished we could have bought happiness instead, there's just not enough of that these days.

listening to lau's voice on the track on his blog. sounds smoothing, though the volume's so low i can't make out wad he's saying. i miss my friend nonetheless.

just threw away many scraps of paper, i remember going home to home in my estate putting these things in their postbox. that i wanted to teach their kids tuition. felt like jobweek, similar feelings of worthlessness and (imagined) racism creeps in.

saw the various correspondences that led to me being in medicine. the medicine entry tests. the acceptance letter from chem eng. appeal for med again. the failure of that. my heart feels just abit heavier than it already is.

just finished talking to YOU. best thing of 2007.

[holsiday]

trying to remember my frens this christmas! one more thing to do =)

[transcend]

i am fearful. the week is slipping away. yet so much remains to be done. yet somehow, i feel my energies have been replenished, somewhat. must be the time to myself, time with family. feels like wearing a new pair of shoes, after the everyday grind takes a toll out of your current pair.

[guys]

go type lelouch on youtube and watch the rendezvous video. apparently its of a ferrari 275 GTB racing down the streets of paris some long time ago.

anyhow. life is okay.

you're just magical.

[too much talk]

i feel dumb. seriously. something is wrong.

[passerbyes]

and so, another blow.

something seriously is wrong.

and yes, curious observation. how suddenly i remember so many people at my birthday party, yet only a handful are really part of my life now.

the rest, well u guys are just passerbys.

how things in life are so impermanent!

the best way to move forward is not to grit your teeth and do some 300 like mad dash. surrender your spirit to your cause, i'm hoping that will get me where i wanna be.

[simple]

life is as simple as u choose to make it.

see it as a seed, you'll grow a flower.

and as i embrace the coherent, i'm learning the hidden wonders of the incoherent, the illogical, the paradoxical and nonsensical.

beauty in all forms.